Musings of a Randomist

Well it's January 1st and for me that means resolutions...

1. To loose weight - possibly the most important as I feel I need to shrink down in size
2. To eat more healthily - part of the the above goal I guess - I don't seem to get enough fruit and veg lately
3. To pay a more positive part in my relationship with Claire - whilst it is easy to sit back and watch Claire do everything I need to make a more active contribution
4. To be neater, tidier and make greater contribution within the household - that includes making more effort to cook, wash up etc.
5. To drink less alcohol - I drink far too much - this year alcohol will not be the answer - I will only have small amounts for celebratory or positive reasons not to drownmy sorrows
6. To eat out less often - I eat out far too much ifI keep the tidying up goals this will be far easier
7. To be a more positive person - I swear too much, I get down to easily - I will take things in my stride more this year
8. To get anew job that pays better - I love the prison but I am bored with being skint!

Today I've mainly been feeling old.

I lived in Cardiff for five years as a student and one of the things I loved about the city was the shops, pubs, bars, clubs - well in all honest all of it! In between lectures in the engineering buildings on Newport Road I would sneak out and wander into town. When I got home of an evening I'd wander the streets of studentville to see what they was to see and do. I never worried about the crowdeness or dirtiness of it in fact I relished in it!

Today I went to Cardiff with my parents and whilst there I met up with Claire. We wandered those same city streets but instead of loving it I felt disappointed in the unswept streets of student land. We got into the city centre - I hated the overcrowdedness of it.

Has Cardiff really changed that much though? Admittedly it has seen its popularity sore due to the Millenium stadium and various other new attractions opening there. However, at the end of the day it is very much the same city that I left and the only thing that has truly changed is me.

When I left Cardiff I was a 21 year old convinced that I could single handedly change the world. I've now been out in the world for seven years and I've realised that however, hard I try I am not going to make a huge impact on the place!

I am not disappointed in this - in fact far from it. I have a job and girlfriend I love and neither of those were the case when I was in Cardiff. I even can say I like myself and to me that means far more than feeling part of those mean city streets.

I like Boxing Day. It's calm, chilled and always far more relaxing than any other of the days around Christmas and New Year. I get to see family who I haven't seen before and have a nice rest up.

Today I have come to my parents and opened my stash of presents. I did rather well for myself with a new camera and a new ipod! My dad has gone to pick up his cousins and soon there will be a nice Boxing Day tea with plenty of nibbles.

Unfortunately the dog kept me awake for a large part of last night so I feel a bit tired at present but I am hoping my energy will soon return.

I love tukey and am always gutted as (because of this family tea which we have on an annual basis) my parents tend to run out of it fairly quickly.

It is great to see my dad's cousins though. They are lovely people and I enjoy their company - if only to wind my parents up with my love of John Lewis and Waitrose.

Diet starts next Wednesday by the way...so I am off now to stuff my face!!

Spending Christmas with a family other than your own has it's advantages and disadvantages...I mean I feel more at ease to get drunk here (lol) but at the same time I find myself missing my parents...

Christmas should be a time where we are all together but as my parents disapproe of Claire that isn't going to happen...and it hurts...I am here with Claire's mum and dad in Penarth when at the end of the day I want to be spending it with my family...until they can accept us though that won't happen..

If this makes minimal sense I apologise..I am drunk and emotional...QE11 is on the tv giving her speech...I have had some Bolly...some Stella...some wine...I have watched TV...I have eaten...I am happy...yet above all I want my Mum & Dad...

I think they believe I do this to spite them...I don'...but Claire is my partner so I can't not be there for her...I do want to be there with them but until they accept that Claire is a large part of my life too it won't happen...

On a more positive note Gill and Bryan are fab...they've bought me a stocking full of presents and ave fed and watered me...

Yes, hard as it seems to believe I am enjoying myself...I am loving my Christmas...but I can't wait for my Boxing Day with my own family...the main reason why I am here though...is to wish one and all a Merry Christmas

xxx

Well it's Christmas Eve and I have been quite succesfull at packing all of my presents in nice shiny paper getting all of my cards in the post on time and getting myself into the festive spirit...I've had a nice bottle of beer...I am feeling relaxed and I am now looking forward to the rest of the holiday...

Today finds me in Penarth...home of the girlfriends parents...it would be nice to spend the holiday with my own parents and my girl but that's not possible...they disapprove you see...they think it's just a phase that I will grow out of...well it is four and a half years on and the two of us are stronger together than ever...so much so I am spending the Christmas with Claire and her family...

I will be heading up the heads of the valleys road on boxing day morning to spend a few days with my mum and dad though and I am looking forward to it...well..and dreading it...actually I'm unsure quite how I feel about it!! I love being there with them but when the ranting starts I want to run away at full speeds...

But in case I don't get to write here again...Happy Christmas Y'All!

well weight loss 2008 looms but first time to have that calorific binge known as Christmas...cakes...sweets...crisps...nuts...wine...beer...

it's that time of year where normally it's a case of my mum and dad encouraging me to eat food and then warning me how fat I'll be...

I love this time of year...the food...the drink..the people...family...friends...

Well I am going to go...knock back some white wine...watch some TV...chill!

I have decided that in the New Year I want to lose some weight as I am fed up with being super jumbo sized Sian. I don't know how exactly I will do this other than being a little more careful with food and alcohol...

Anyway I am hoping that as part of this I will be able to do a sponsored slim in aid of Hall Green Retired Greyhound Trust - I will give them a pound for every pound I put on and a pound for every pound I loose. I will be weighed weekly with Claire my partner hopefully provding a weigh in service.

It's going to be hard work but it will be worthwhile in the long run...I will post the link to my sponsor form on here in the new year as it currently needs RGT approval!! I would appreciate any support you can offer and will give you regular updates! Sponsorship will be based on my reaching a size 16 (from a size 18-20 at present)

Anyway...I will post again shortly as I know this isn't the most exciting of blog posts today!!

Had one roast dinner at lunch time with work...now in Wales and about to have a second one with family and friends...how much turkey can one girl eat?

I have to be honest the Sunday roast is my favourite meal ever. I could eat a roast with all the trimmings every day of the week if I had to...carveries are the world's greatest invention for people like me...give me some turkey, chicken, lamb or pork with yorkshire pud, roasties and caulli cheese and I am in heaven...

It's time to eat again!

I fell in love yesterday...

She was about three feet high...

Fawn in colour...

Bouncy...

Energetic...

Loveable...

...and I can't have her!!!

Meet Violet the most adorable little greyhound other than my own dog Paddy...

I am distraught...

Just put BBC1 on to watch my beloved Neighbours and it has gone...

Where has it gone? when will it reappear? somebody help!!!