So today I had a interview...it was at a fairly dire school in a fairly hideous suburb of Birmingham...apparently in terms of deprived areas within the UK the catchment of this school was in the 80th percentile. It was an area surrounded by tower blocks, council houses and just had the feel of an area which had fallen on hard times.
I was alread feeling anxious when leaving home but after travelling for an hour to go ten miles down the road was feeling so on edge it was unreal!
As I pulled up outside the school my gut feeling was one of fear - partly because I am unsure I want to go back into teaching just yet, partly because of the general feel of the place. The recpetionist greeted us warmly in between explaining that the school was temporarily closed due to a flood - one of the water pipes had burst and water was pouring out into one of the main corridors.
I guess I should have felt relieved as this meant I wouldn't have to teach a lesson. However, I felt a sense of disappointment as I spent ages preparing for it and attempting to get things right. What it also meant was an interview which relied on my ability to talk to people...
I don't know about anyone else but I find talking in interviews a nerve wracking experience. You never know what people expect you to say, what is percieved as the correct answer in one school is seen completely different in another.
The first candidate was out in 15 minutes and I was there for 25 minutes. I left feeling semi positive being told they'd phone and be told the outcome. I am still awaiting a phone call so my feeling is that I have been unsuccessful.
I don't know what to feel to be honest...I am unsure I wanted the job but I don't know if I didn't want it either...hmmm...life hey?
